Heart.

My heart is left to the ice and the vandals.
Like a once great castle, now it lays in shambles.
No longer shining and gold,
It now appears tattered and old.
Not that it ever mattered,
Now it is just something that lies shattered.
This old heart of mine,
Is just not what it used to be. 

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I guess nobody likes to stick around.
Nothing ever clicks and bounds.
I utter “I will possess your heart”,
Then they reveal they were never there from the start.
Sink or float?
Water clogs up my lungs and I start to choke.
Have the strength to survive!
It never looks like I’ll stay alive. 

Some people fucking disgust me.

It’s so sickening to see you pretend.
Well dear, let’s see you pretend when you’re at your end.
Let’s see you pretend when you can’t defend.
Let’s see you pretend when you’re no longer considered the queen.
Let’s see you pretend when you deem them “Oh so mean”.
Yes, let’s see you pretend you lying little devil.
How about you stop and get on my level? 

Sin.

Sin.
Something not found, but from within.
Sin.
It lends itself to a lie, won't leave you when you die.
Sin.
Won't let my dark thoughts end, since I am no one's to tend.
Guess I will just revel in...
Sin.

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Inspiration's dead.
Innovation's weak.
You all know what I want to say,
But can I even speak?
Those words I need to say,
Won't make it out today, or quite possibly ever.
As you can tell, I am not quite that clever...

Taught.

Whether I am fine or not,
There is something all of you need to be taught.
I'm strung out. On edge. Distraught.
These things that I feel, I'd much rather not.

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To drink to forget you, is just a temporary reprieve
The real you, is something I can no longer retrieve.
I just want an end.
Like an angel from within the light,
Or a devil found deep in the night.
I just want this pain to go away.
But somehow I know....
That it is here for a longer stay.

Singing & Screaming.

Teach me how to sing,
About life and all its sorrow.
Teach me how to scream,
About life and all its joys.
Teach me how to sing softly to all the girls
(Or maybe just you?)
Teach me how to scream and be rowdy with all the boys.
But above all else…
Teach me how to live again and be new.

Music.

Music is what will keep me strong.
Music is what will get me through.
Music will never leave me, unlike you.
This is the one thing I will love to do.
This is the one thing I will love more than you.

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I don’t feel “normal” anymore.
Don’t feel quite myself.
I wish you would come and save me, like you used to.
I wish you would take the day, tell me everything is going to be alright.
That everything will be okay.
Hold me long into the night, never let me out of your sight.
And when the day break, I’d want you to be the one I see when I wake
But now…I don’t feel “normal” anymore.
I don’t feel quite myself.
It seems this is quite the place to have fell...
For now I have to endure this personal hell.